Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Out of spoons....

Hellooooo. I've been meaning to post all kinds of reviews but things have been getting pretty difficult lately pain wise. So unfortunately the reviews have taken a back seat to everything else. I've always wanted to write and the fact that I've gotten a lot (to me anyway) of views from places other than my friends(please continue reading because I do appreciate it :D) was really exciting to me. Especially because I'm not writing anything of significance or importance. I don't know when my next review will be posted, but when I get to it I'll make sure to do two of them.
Thanks again for reading, please continue to visit, and please comment so people believe me when I say I get readers  ^_^

Here's a little bit of info on me as well.

http://www.gofundme.com/di1itc

Friday, May 9, 2014

Some TMI and the Aztec Secret Indian Healing Clay Review

Ok, its been a while. I've been busy with the whole endometriosis/ chronic pain thing,  but this post isn't about that...er ok it kind of is. This post is inspired by my acne prone and troubled skin. While I've been away from the blog I mentioned my endometriosis and adenomyosis, I spent a little over a year on all kinds of birth control pills in an attempt to treat some of the symptoms. Not only did they not do diddly for the symptoms, I ended up going through eight or nine different pills, gained 30lbs, and my acne was beyond out of control.  This was the deep cystic hormonal beasts that prompted many horrendous comments from people and dramatic feelings of being too ugly for my cats to love me. Now before all this went down,  my skin still was far from blemish free, but I at least had it, for the most part, under control;  except for blackheads and the monthly breakout.
You're probably thinking after I quit the pills my acne went away the same way it came, but unfortunately, no. It stopped popping up new horrors, but I was left with a face full of blemishes that took time to get rid of. (I did lose the rest of the weight after surgery though, so there's that)
Now, the acne is pretty minimal, but I'm left with a ton of scarring and dark spots.
So I've tried a lot of different face things and decided why not blog them?

...So here goes....


This is the "Aztec Secret Indian Healing Clay" This stuff has a cult following it seems and for a good reason. I first looked this up on Amazon,  because I love Amazon,  and the rating+amount of reviews,  along with the price is what prompted me to try this.  But if you're going to slather something on your face,
I encourage you to do your own research.
 I found the majority of negative reviews were from lazy people.  You do have to mix this stuff to turn it into mud. And if you don't have patience or brain cells for that, taking it off will be just as difficult.  I'll get to that.
First,  lets talk money.


Price: This stuff is cheap as ...dirt? Amazon has it for under $8 and I bought mine from Vitamin Shoppe for a little less.  There is a ton of product for the price; the container could realistically last at least six months.
This clay can be mixed with either water, or Apple cider vinegar.  But buying the vinegar is equally inexpensive.  I use "Braggs" brand and got a large bottle for under $5. I'd have a picture but I gave it away. :c
The vinegar gets fizzy when combined with the product and mixes easier than with water.




Mixing: There's directions on the package,(says to mix equal parts)  but after following them I realized im better off just mixing it until I get the consistency I want.
A tiny bit of this will cover your whole face. I use a glass container, because of the apple cider vinegar,  and a little scoop I saved from Oxyclean. I use that to measure and my finger to mix it. I use only a little bit at a time, but for a large batch I recommend you do use a spoon.
I use a small amount of mud and twice as mucb apple cider vinegar or until I get a very creamy consistency.
The directions also say to put it on 1/4 of an inch thick on your face, but it's too thick to dry,  so again,  just put it on however thick you like.
Mixing it can be messy for some people, so if you're messy and cleaning up after each mask sucks too much, you can mix a large batch, and put it in the refrigerator.  But if you absolutely refuse to clean at all, because you're an adult and only own paper plates, you can mix it all in a giant zip lock bag, use it and refrigerate it until it runs out and just toss the bag in the trash.
Im not judging because Im lazy too. :p

Your face: the package says the mask "pulsates" and really the mask gets so stiff it feels like your face circulation has ceased,  so yes, that does create a sensation some may call "pulsating". I like it though because it makes me feel like it's working.

 Oh and don't expect to make any facial expressions.  It's what I imagine botox face is like.

Some reviews I've read say that the mask comes off in chunks and clogs your drain and a lot of elaborate,  "I wash my face outside with the garden hose" solutions,  but again, I think it's lazy people that try to take the mask off as quickly as possible that have a drain clogging problem. I will say it's easier to wash it off in the shower just because I have more room. The big secret to getting this stuff off your face is to just be patient and take it off in gentle circular motions, much like you would when you"re putting on face wash. It really doesn't take long at all.

Results: Your face will be red from all lack of circulation action that just went down.  It goes away in about 30 minutes.  This dries out big blemishes,  brings the ones that stay under the skin to the surface,  and removes blackheads or at least brings them up enough to safely squeeze out. I actually used this for two weeks, first every day, then every other day just to get my gross birth control blemishes under control.  This stuff does make things come out,  but thats good, because afterwards is clear skin.
After the two weeks just mentioned,  I used the mask 3x a week. This stuff was getting out blackheads that have been there for ...years. Gross I know. But it was very exciting and now they're gone ^_^
Be sure to cleanse your face first and use a moisturizer after. That is a must, this stuff will dry out your face. 

Cons: The only real downside is that the more my skin cleared up, the less noticeable the results were.  It's easy to see the effects on a face full of trouble, but when you're just using this mask for maintenance,  it's really easy to question weather it is still an amazing product.
Another possible con could be that the apple cider vinegar doesn't smell great, even though I kind of like it, the smell could be off putting to others. And of course the mess factor could deter some as well.

I encourage you to read other reviews,  pinterest, whatever,  but overall this product is definitely one of my favorites and if you try it, I hope you like it as much as I do :D




Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Naive Aloe Facial Cleansing Foam by Kracie

Today I'll be reviewing this Japanese face wash.

The only English words say "naive" "facial cleansing foam" and "Kacie" so again, I relied on my bff Amazon to tell me what's up.

Amazons description include:

  • Aloe is well known for its healing and moisture properties.
  • Squalane heightens moisturizing.

 I pretty much saw this at my local (ok, Dallas) Asian "mall" looked it up on and saw the star rating and bought it for $6.99..maybe $7.99.  They had several others same brand and bottle but with different pictures of what I'm assuming to be the main ingredient.  I recognized this as aloe and bought it because aloe is supposed to be bomb for your skin anyway.  Educated guessing.  

I will go ahead and say any face wash used is used after I remove make up with wipes. I don't rely on face wash to remove my make up and cleanse my skin because I personally don't think that's realistic.  So I'm only reviewing how it cleanses skin itself.

Now, Wet yo' face ^_^


Could use about half of what's in the photo but I wanted you to see the texture. It's very creamy, almost like lotion, but kind of sticky at the same time. Also, by using half of what's in the photo, this stuff managed to last me almost 3 months.  


 It foams up very nicely with a little water, the amount of water that's probably already on your face is enough, but without water it is kind of thick and paste like, and definitely more difficult to dispurse.   
The way it foams up is more like a shave cream/gel,  the lady kind for legs, not the man kind for face. Definitely not the foam consistency of hand wash either.

The smell is very strong, doesnt exactly smell like aloe, but it does smell very much like leafy green things, and almost sweet. It's  not unpleasant at all though, and the smell does goe away after washing it off.

Immediately after drying, my face is extremely soft, like I've never had a face wash leave it so soft before. It was very different,  for me anyway. On top of that, my face did have a "glow" to it, which freaked me out a little at first, but still very cool. As someone with combination skin, I can say I was not a oil slick by the end of the day so this does also control oil without over drying the rest of your skin. 

The cons: this does a great job cleansing skin, and keeps most blemishes away, however if you do get one, it doesn't do much to get rid of it quickly. Your big ol' zit just has to run its course, or use a spot treatment.  If you do pick at said zit, (which you shouldn't, but hey, it happens!) It does seem to heal a little quicker.
The nice "glow" doesn't last very long and after using it 2x a day every day it's almost unnoticeable.  Take a break for a few days And you'll notice it again though.
Overall, I would buy this again.  If you're feeling like trying something different, this seems like a good safe spot to start.

I'm a bit slow with updating the blog but I'll be posting two next time when I get the chance. 


One mask and a lemon "sleeping pack"
Till next time c: 

Monday, September 9, 2013

Incomplete and Defeated

There are a lot of unfinished projects I've started. A hard copy journal/mini scrap book, a tumbler to move my blog to, all the chores in my tiny apartment. Nothing is really getting done. Every minute I don't have to work is a minute I usually spend on my sofa.
Surgery is next week and the nerves are really starting to kick in. I feel as though nothing at home is prepared, my list of after surgery things I think I'll need isn't done, but then again "fat pants" are on the list so how important can the rest be? Everything is difficult and everything sucks and I feel like I might have messed up any chances I had to get ahead at work by becoming increasingly sick over the last few months.

Even writing this post is exhausting.

Monday, August 5, 2013

A defining Moment

My defining moment is an unfortunate one. This endo shit got real and I feel as though my life is falling apart around me. I hope that my surgery in September lets me be how I used to be. Everything is exhausting. It's funny, I thought the only thing wrong was my lady bits, but I can't even think straight anymore. I'm preparing for surgery by looking at other blogs, pinterest, and my Facebook support groups.
Work is increasingly difficult, relationships except a few are close to nonexistent or strained, and I think I'm loosing it.

I am going to have this disease for the rest of my life, and I'm not sure I've come to accept this yet.

Saturday, July 27, 2013

Kitty meow meow

I wrote this a long time ago on Facebook and this gem went unnoticed. Here goes again with slight revision. Which means I just fixed the typos and spacing.

feeling so trapped
the pressure is physically disabling
... and I swear my chest is caving in

It's so hard to see,
my head is aching from the impact

this is supposed to be love
...you made me believe this was love.

I can't even move.

Some nights I cant sleep and I'm left awake with my thoughts

How could eyes as blue as the sky, as deep as the ocean, make me feel hated
...yet loved
...inadequate
...yet desperately needed

these things always run through my head when all the cats are on me and I cant breath or move because Neko is crushing my stomach and pinning my legs and choco is on my chest kneeding my face and giving me head knucks to the point I might have a concussion and Graybie is just walking all over me to find a comfortable spot.

I love these assholes.

Choco (my favorite)
Neko (the husbands cat)
Gray+baby= Graybie (the new one)
All of them!

Monday, June 24, 2013

Game Ovaries- This is my Endo begining.


When you google "endometriosis" you get the same medical definition:

"Endometriosis is a female health disorder that occurs when cells from the lining of the womb (uterus) grow in other areas of the body. This can lead to pain, irregular bleeding, and problems getting pregnant (infertility)."

More or less. It doesn't sound too serious when put that way, but I've been to the doctor way too many times over this, tried over nine different birth control pills over this, and it's pretty serious biz when you're in pain almost every single day. Yup, something is wrong. June of last year was when all of this started, and if i didn't write things down, I don't think I would be able to rememeber what I felt like when I was "normal"

To me, none of that matters so much now. I could have paid for a lap out of pocket to see if it is for sure endometriosis or not and if it is, how bad the damage is, so to speak. I chose not to because if I did, that would go down as a preexisting condition for insurance and then I would definitely be up a creek without a paddle. So instead I've been busting my ass working, I have my insurance now, and I've found a specialist and broke up with my old doctor. I would have broken up with the old doctor anyway, so don't feel bad for him.

Monday is the first day I'll be seeing a specialist, and to me it really feels like this is going to determine if the life I knew a year ago will ever be attainable again, or if it'll just be a memory. I do hope I can write more consistently, and I do hope those that read this will stick around for my mix of posts. Some things will be serious and some things, not so much.

Here's a Japanese screen shot of them explaining endo. It's super kawaii, like everything else they do.